October 11, 2005

  • "Esther Falls Off Chair Towards Camera"

    Last week on Monday, Esther and I tossed
    around the idea of me flying out for the weekend... She found a great
    deal, and I said why not. God knows how to time things because in the
    morning, she found out her dad took a turn for the worse as his body
    was shutting down from cancer. Kristen
    dropped me off at the airport at 4:30a on Friday, and I got to Portland
    by that afternoon. Her sister Donna called to say that their dad had
    stopped breathing. What do you say as you drive all the
    way out there?

    I dropped her off as she wanted and headed back to her apartment. God knows how to time things because her brother, Jonathan,
    knocked on the door with his wife Jennifer. I had no idea who this
    short couple was. I mean, what was I thinking answering the door at
    someone else's apartment without knowing? Thankfully not being ax
    murderers - either of us - we went out to dinner in Corvallis. The
    whole weekend was like this. Great times punctuated by sad moments.

    It wasn't until about 2:30a when Esther came back with the news that
    her dad had died. It was bittersweet knowing that he wasn't in pain any
    longer but in in heaven instead.... I was quiet for a long time. You
    can say that she was prepared for it, that she knew this was coming for
    a long time. Really, though, how can you be. Esther is an amazing
    person. She was every bit herself the whole weekend in a beautiful way.
    I would hope that I would have that same grace.

    God knows. I was praying the whole weekend, and so were many other
    people. I know she's grateful for that support. On Saturday, we spent
    the day visiting her family and friends. I think they liked me. She has
    a pretty cool family....she really does. Oh, and can I show you the
    t-shirt I made for her?

    Thanks, I really was just looking for an
    excuse to model clothing. (A male model fallen on hard times, okay?)  I had told Esther that if I ever found a
    shirt along these lines, I'd buy one for her, and for her friend Zach
    who's also dating a boy from Wisconsin... The whole thing seems to be
    entirely more amusing if you're outside the state pictured.

    On the OSU campus, I snapped this
    troubled car that had gotten thrown up on the curb in a hit-and-run.
    You tend to think, "hahaha that sucks." Right? End of thought? You
    don't think that YOUR OWN TRUCK IS BEING ROBBED. Seriously. My truck's
    tailights were stolen while I was in Oregon. Wh-Why? One of them was
    broken anyways... I was planning on getting them both replaced anyhow,
    but still. It was $200 that I was not planning on spending. Hopefully
    it goes smoothly, they ripped one of the light sockets in the process.

    I leave you with one last picture from the OSU campus that you can
    click for the full version. Through all the joking around this
    past weekend, through all the tears and heart-breaking sadness, there
    were many times that we shared together that were beautiful. Being
    there was the only place to be.

Comments (20)

  • Awwwww


    Suckies! (fist raised)
    awwwww, pretty

    (sequential reactions to post)

  • Dang it Nick, I can't make fun of you being a cyborg when you're all being there for your girlfriend and...being a good guy...and stuff...good job though :) You represent men well! *raises glass of strawberry milk*

  • seriously get me a boyfriend from Wisconsin, just so i can have one of those shirts!!!! great picture...you guys are adorable

  • it's really nice you were here this weekend....yay for nick!

  • I am trying so hard to find something smart-alecky to say, but every time I see that picture of you and Esther, my heart melts and I well up a little.  Ahhhh you two are so right together.  Love you both but mostly Esther.  HA found my snarky side again

  • Nick, I'm so glad you're able to be there for Esther during this time. Wish I could be there too!

  • hey- that's crazy. did you live in the dorms at first? i wouldn't really have a problem with my roommate if her boyfriend wasn't here. he was snoring so loud last night that it woke me up at 3:30 am. ahhhh.. nobody wakes me up like that without me getting crabby. anyway, it WILL get better, when she drops out in Dec... thanks for the comment.

  • Being with you brightens even the darkest day. I like you so much and thank God you were here and could be apart of the family during our crisis. Thanks for being a strong hand to hold.

  • lovely photos, as always, unfortunately, it was sad story to go along with them this time.  good job on being there for her.  hope all is well

  • "Great times punctuated by sad moments."

    beautiful.

  • God's timing is so right. and you made a t-shirt??! wow, how extraordinary is that. ryc: maybe "ban" is a bit strong. having lived in nw minnesota for a good portion of my life, i can part company with the coldness. it is fun to visit though.

  • 1. Very cute picture!!
    2. You're right...no matter how prepared you think you are or very well may be, nothing compares to what it's like when it actually happens.  That's what it was like at my great-grandma's funeral.  She was in the hospital for a good month or so before it all finally ended and I was the one crying the hardest at the funeral.  I was literally in convulsions.  No one understood why and I myself didn't and still don't.  But, I think in that same day I got it all out.  I haven't really cried since.  Once in a while because I miss her, but...wow that got long...
    3. Thanks for the request :)   I might have to do that this weekend...

  • wow...i really admire you and your "xanga site abilities". lol. haha yeah i've seen clips and clips of napolean dynamite-all kind of random parts, but i guess it doesn't really matter since the whole thing is random, but everytime i'm about to watch it something happens and i end up not watching it. btw- how do u put pictures on your site??? and who is that lucky lady in your pic?? ;) aww how cute!!

    <3 dianne

  • Are you still here?

  • yes 5:30 is very early to start the day

  • I would if I could have heard anything except bass. No, I just sang the loudest songs that came to mind. I Will Always Love You, various Phantom of the Opera, Mariah Carey, etc.  :)

  • why are you posting comments on esther's site when you should be calling me back? seriously, dude.

  • Glad you could be here this weekend, Nick.  God's timing for sure.

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  • nicky...gawsh do you have a brother for kathyrn?  or chelsea?  i think i am in love wtih you! way to be a man of excellence.  i know quite a few young men who could learn quite  a lot from you.  wel done and most excellent. thank you.

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